As of today after school, I am going on an Epic Retreat for class in which there are no electronics, no phones, no other-than-bible books (I'm cheating on that one), no watches... Wish me luck? It's an overnight from Tuesday night to Friday afternoonish.

:/

So, I went to NY to check out colleges this weekend!

And I've gotta ask. Dear NJ drivers: why do you have an obsession with following right behind other cars instead of passing them when there's plenty of room on the road? Are you lonely? Are you trying to be car buddies? Are you so used to bumper-to-bumper traffic that you can't do anything else? Are you just being assholes?

Seriously, I passed easily half a dozen little clumps of cars with Jersey license plates all huddled together on the way to Rochester and then another Jersey driver followed right behind me all the way from Cortland to Syracuse.

Figured I'd post this before I went off to suffer retake the SAT.

For English a week or two ago, we had to write college essays. One of the topics was 'how will you grow and change because of spending the next four years in college?' ten_th talked me into writing about transitioning. So, I did, and I turned it in despite wanting to go hide under the nearest rock instead.

I got it back yesterday. On the evaluation sheet, we were supposed to put student comments--how it was, what we thought about it, etc--and I wrote 'I'm probably going to regret turning this in.' Aside from a few comments about liking the analogy I used, she wrote (next to that comment), "I hope you don't."

... :)

To whom it may concern: and by that I mean everyone! Go add lydiairis! The oft-mentioned bff who I just convinced to get a LJ. You should add her if you are into: dorkitude, vampires, Buffy, True Blood, John Waters, Dexter, Poppy Z. Brite, "my uber coolness and how I spend my days just watching Buffy," Rocky Horror, Ani, Lily Allen, etc!

Seriously, go add her, for she is awesome. You will get brownie points from me. :D

Happy birthday to me! I am now officially a legal adult.
Huh.

Still unsure as to how to feel about that. For those of you who are past the 18 marker, how was 18 for you?

Also, it occurred to me that there are a fair amount of people on LJ I've never interacted with because they have 18+ only friending policies. Direct me to who is awesome that I've been missing?

Think I'm taking a break from obsessive Shakesville reading for a while. I need to catch up in flistland and I'm terrible at multitasking when it comes to the internets.

I love early-family-birthday-parties. I got a pair of Skullcandy headphones! (which is good, as the headphones I'd been using were six years old, had been duct taped together roughly fifteen million times, and only played through one ear) They are awesome and I am never going to be able to hear anyone outside my room ever. Mmm, noise cancelling.

I also got a replacement for my (still) stolen ipod, which I am extremely pleased about. I still haven't thought up a proper name for it--at the moment, it's called 'this ship' so when I open up itunes 'this ship' is syncing.

... yeah, I totally lifted that idea from MLIA, what of it.

Hello, LJ! I'm not dead. I am, however, finally almost over being sick to the point where I couldn't sit up for prolonged periods without having a lie-down afterwards (and let's not get into this fun standing business). I swear I didn't have swine flu*. I think it was probably just a Flu from Hell.

I've spent most of my time staring off into space alternating between groaning "braaains" and "bacoooon" and reading Shakesville and The Sexist on my phone. And sleeping. I think I may have approached cat-level proportions of sleep time.

Anyhow! How are you all? What have I missed in my sickness-induced haze? If I'm inordinately silly, I can at least blame it on cold medicine right now.

*I checked the symptoms and everything. Yes, really. You never know, okay?

eta: also, this makes me happy on so many levels.

eta2: lolsob. I love it. Of course when I was getting over my flu I would come down with a sinus infection! :/
oh god my headdddddd

Why yes, I am exactly the kind of person who if my girlfriend asks me to tell her a bedtime story about 'stuff' I will make up a story about a unicorn called Stuff and another unicorn called Things who realize they are meant for each other.

It was an awesome story, don't judge.

The ex-bf and I haven't spoken in several weeks, and texting girl wants to stay single until she has herself sorted. Said gf is ten_th who I have known approximately forever and a day (in actuality, probably more like a year and a half). She's awesome. You should be jealous.

But don't get into a smiley war with her. :D-faces now haunt my dreams.

In other news, I have no idea what this silly concept called sleep is. Also after reading a bunch of meta on it, I have a burning desire to watch more Criminal Minds.

So, I have listened to all of my music roughly five billion times, and I'm either going to see if I can get a replacement ipod for my birthday (two weeks until I'm 18! Oh dear gods, do I have to pretend to be an adult now?) or save up enough money to replace mine on my own. As such! Recommend awesome music I should hunt down?

Also, I bought a plastic container full of Halloween candy that's shaped like a beaker a few days ago, and now that I've eaten everything in it, I've been pouring soda into the beaker and drinking out of it. I feel like a mad scientist. A mad scientist who apparently only deals in non-lethal chemicals.

... yeah, this pretending to be an adult business is not going to work out so well, I am sensing.

You guys are fucking awesome.

Know I haven't been around to comment much--it's been school, nap, work, homework, sleep for most of the week. Things have been crazy. But I switched to a less insane math class, and apparently the freshmen are raving to my mom (who has them for class) that I'm awesome--so confused, I know maybe six of em--and my friend Sophia and I are planning on figuring out a way to start a GSA or something along those lines at least. Am I probably gonna get my ass kicked for it? Yep. I can't wait. No sarcasm there even.

Things are getting exciting. I hope you've all been well, and I hope I get the chance to catch up soon. Love you, my marshmallow peeps.

It is midnight and I have no homework done.

However, I did come out to texting girl (for those of you that friended me more recently, an ex-girlfriend of mine I really kind of want to get back together with. Especially now. Called texting girl because we do 90% of our communication via texts) as trans.

She said she felt really awesome that I was comfortable enough to tell her, asked if I was going to be going through the whole transitioning process, and apologized in advance in case in the future she got some bits of terminology wrong.

... fuck me, I'm in love. \o/ oh my godddd oh my goddddd YAY

I am literally dancing right now.

eta: "Life is too short to be anything but yourself as long as you're happy in the end it shouldn't matter how long it takes. i seriously feel honored that you would talk to me about this and i have your back no matter what and im always here for you u know that." omfg. <333

taken from frozen_ballad

My username is thelemic. I'd already used all of my typical usernames I go by, so I looked through a list of rare words until something caught my eye. I had no idea what it meant at the time, but hey.

My journal name is shake these zipper blues, lyrics from 1979 by the Smashing Pumpkins. I love that song.

My title is of the leaves full of children, which is a line from a book of poetry Bee got me to read, Love Letters Unsent to People Unmet by John Robinson. It's fantastic. It's also where my tumblr name came from.

My subtitle is and the children full of straw, the next line in that particular poem.

My friends page i love you so much that it hurts my head, from Degausser by Brand New. I am a sap and I love my friends. And that song.

My default userpic is that one Chris Anthony photo of Gerard and Lyn-Z. I've loved his photos for ages, and when I saw it, I knew I had to make something out of it.

Two recs! To Cast Turpentine Kisses, notfic!Frank/Gerard teacher/student fic of ridiculous awesome, and Document, which features trans!Patrick. I wanted that story to go on for ever and ever. I am also quite jealous of fictional!Patrick's family.

on the note of the second, on Friday I wore my binder to school for what I think is the first time. It was... it was good. And it didn't hurt much even after an entire school day, which was one of my concerns in the first place, so--first time, but certainly not the last.

So, Dear and the Headlights in Akron on the 18th. Is it too much of a long shot to check if anyone else is going? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

omg concerts, how I have missed you.

eta: ( hypothetical concerts list! )

Someone should write a Boondock Saints/Inglourious Basterds crossover.

THINK OF HOW AMAZING THAT WOULD BE.

Things have been a little depressing around here, so I decided to lighten the mood a bit. This is my actual assignment I'm turning in tomorrow. Oh, AP Lit, how I love you.

A Very Important and Informative Essay on ( how to survive a zombie attack (expected or otherwise) )

also, thank you all for being lovely ♥♥♥

The art I did for genderbendbb! It's not my favorite, but I kinda like the effects I used.

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My mom and I took a trip to the Social Security office after school to clear some things up. We somehow arrived with five minutes to spare before it closed (as soon as we walked in the woman at the desk told the guard we were the last and he should lock the door), made sure I would in fact get SS benefits after I turn 18 since I'm still in school (special program--if you're retired and getting it and you have kids still in K-12, they get money too \o/), set it up so when I do turn 18 they direct deposit into my account, found out when I'm actually going to start getting them, and finally, finally asked if I could receive benefits and have a job at the same time.

Turns out, contrary to what we had all assumed, I can! As long as I don't make more than 14k a year (and the chances of that are slim) I can work and get governmental check goodness at the same time.

I don't have to be broke anymore!

\\\o///

I'm with fleurdeliser here. FLAMES ON THE SIDE OF MY FACE. I've been following this whole fanfic "survey" business pretty closely, and I'm pretty sure they just topped 99% of their previous fail with this.

>:(

eta: the more responses I read, though, the more I am reminded just why I've spent almost seven years in fandom now. &fandom;

PSA: Go see Inglourious Basterds. I loved it to pieces.

Getting back into the swing of school--it's not bad, really. I love love love English and Chemistry and Art 2 and Latin is surprisingly tolerable, if awkward because I'm with nothing but freshmen and they are so timid. I do half the talking in that class, at least. Math is kind of pissing me off though. I'm doing independent study calculus (which is a first for my school, actually, no one else's ever attempted it, but there was no way to make it work with my schedule so I do what I have to do) and the calculus teacher apparently feels ~slighted for this or something, because so far I have gotten zero textbooks, was not told by him about a quiz for tomorrow even though I went to go see him this morning--I had to be told by a friend of mine who's in the class, and after spending three hours on the first assignment that he always grades for accuracy (summer math), he handed it back to me at the end of the day, completely unmarked, and told me he'd given me credit for doing it but didn't want to bother checking it, so I should check it with someone who's in the class.

>:(

anyway. how are you all? I'm getting back into the swing of LJ now and it is awesome! Also, I have a comic to draw out and that is basically it for tonight, so \o/ for that.